"MAAAA.........MA"!!

25 April 2006 -- 13.57 WIB

I was on my day off from the office and it was very much relaxing to be able to play with my one and only child - the apple of my eyes - Yukio. It was meant to take a nap with him after all that laughing and snugling on the bed. I wanted to sleep him over and after that as I ussually do, I would watch him sleep and hear his breathing. It's always give me this shivering in my heart. I love my child like I've never loved anyone before. I know it sounds familiar but you'll never feel it unless you are there. Believe me... this tiny little creature can make you laugh and cry at the same time. I know that every woman will fall in love with their children but I must say that what I feel for this little guy is sooooooo much.. it hurts!!

And on that afternoon when I thought that both of us already asleep, I heard with loud and clear he called me - for the very first time - "Maaa....ma". I woke up instantly and with tears in my eyes I picked him up and gave him a very big hug. "Oh.. Yukio, you could finally call me Mama". He didn't seem to understand and gave me that - whats going on in here - look.

Maybe I should tell you why that first time made my heart so happy. Like other mother in the world, I expected the first word came out from my baby's mouth would be "Mama" instead of "Papa". Its not that I dont want him to never be able to call his father, but its just that mothers have stronger bonding with their children than fathers do. So there it goes Yukio call his father offtenly. Since its the only word he could say, he call everyone else with "Papa". He even called me with "Papa" also!!!.

So I guess you understand that it made me on seventh heaven when I heard for the very first time he called me "Mama".

Like the day I was honoured giving birth to him, I will never forget this day also, this occasion, this moment, the sound of his voice, the way he smiled and looked at me with that big lovely eyes. It will stay forever in my mind and when I'm old and couldn't remember a thing, it will still stay in my heart until one day I'll be able to tell everyone on when my son Yukio made me the happiest mother on earth, on when he made me a complete woman.

I Love you my child...